Chapter 15 - 'Maa kamakhya'

I have been privileged to visit almost all the temples in the country by the grace of GOD. I took a pledge to never visit the 'Kamakhya Devi' Temple. I had my own reasons; it was a firm "no" from my side.

My mother used to tell me that she wished to visit there. I told her that I would make arrangements for her and my father, but that I would not visit the temple myself.

But no one is above God. My mother passed away, and she couldn't visit the temple. I decided that I would fulfill one of her last wishes.

However, I didn't have any devotional motivation from within. It was just a formality for me.

I planned my trip. Usually, I don't make detailed trip plans, but this time I did.

Anyway, I started my journey and reached the airport. My flight was canceled. The next flight was only available the following day, 22 hours later. I decided to cancel the trip. 

Because I had started without true devotion, I felt I had received a slap from God.

I realized my mistake and apologized to the Goddess.

After some days, I planned the trip again. Same flight, same return flight, same taxi, same hotel, same time slot, and the same priest etc. I didn't want to change anything else, but this time, I had true devotion.

I felt that God might punish me again because I hadn't wanted to visit the temple with true devotion earlier. I was genuinely scared about having the Darshan of the Goddess.

In the end, I had a wonderful Darshan at the temple by the grace of the Goddess.

God planned this trip. They wanted me to visit the 'Kamakhya Devi' Temple, just as they had arranged for me to visit other temples. But they took my mother and forced me to come like this. I hope the Goddess will take care of my mother.

जय माँ कामाख्या।